Losing weight, one diet at a time; one month at a time…
Archive for February, 2008
Several years ago I attended Overeater’s Anonymous and their big thing was about “letting go” and NOT trying to control this demon myself. I guess it’s about getting to the point of realizing that I am powerless and it’s out of my control. And I couldn’t ever quite understand that concept. I wasn’t sure how to let go or what to let go of. I’ve been in control of everything for so long – never having anyone to rely on but myself (which wasn’t ever really the case). I was always thinking it was the “dieting” I was to let go of. But, I had an epiphany (I love them) that it’s not about the food or the dieting that I needed to let go of – but whatever it is that is causing me to eat or be out of control. That’s what I need to let go of and hand that over to a “higher power”.
Now I need to pay more attention to exactly why I’m overeating and why I’m making such poor choices.
About 5 or so years ago I lost over 60 pounds and kept it off until the past year, when I started to put it back on. I’m scarred to death to gain all that weight, but I do feel like I’m out of control. The catalyst to the weight loss was quitting smoking. I don’t remember ever doing anything that was so difficult and I figured if I can get through that – I can certainly lose the weight I had never been able to lose in the past. So, I gave up sugar and flour completely and went to “Curves” religiously. It was determination that got me to lose that weight – I was still fully in control.
Anyway, OA is a twelve step group, just like AA. I think it’s a good program, but I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to “let go”. I don’t know if I will ever be that “determined” as I was when I lost the original 60 pounds. That’s why I question being able to do this myself.
There’s something to be said for the support of friends when trying to lose weight. My good friend and professional colleague joined the Emperor and I for a fabulous Italian dinner last night at Ralph’s Italian Restaurant in South Philly. We were talking about our struggles to lose weight and she told me that she had recently partnered with her good friend to work together in a common goal. The goal they set was to eat healthy, exercise, report to each other daily and open phone lines when either of them gets into a “crisis” situation. They also each set the goal of 20 pounds by May – very attainable!
I was excited and asked if I could join their small group! I was welcomed in.
I invited both of them to be authors on Fat Lady Singz and I’m hoping they will take me up on that offer and write posts on their struggles and successes.
What I struggle with most in trying to lose weight and make good, healthful choices when eating – is maintaining the motivation. I believe entering into this pursuit with friends and like-minded people will help tremendously overcoming that obstacle.
So now, WE will endeavor to persevere!