I’ve come to the conclusion that if I remain busy, as I usually am, loosing weight isn’t a problem. But, things have been a
little bit slower for me as of late - which has forced me to slow down - and that means nothing to do on the weekends. When I have nothing to do - I want to eat. After all these years of trying to lose weight, I’ve found that I eat when I’m bored. Now, my therapist would say that this is still considered emotional eating because the boredom masks itself as something else. If I have nothing in front of me to do, then I may be left to deal with myself - apparently, keeping busy all the time, keeps me from dealing with me. And, a minute alone with myself with nothing to do - I believe that I’m bored, but, in fact, my thoughts may start becoming about me (and we can’t have that), so, to get away from them - I eat.
But, I made it through the weekend without too much damage. It was Easter and we committed to go to the Emperor’s father’s house for Easter dinner on Saturday and they had the actual Easter Day dinner at our house on Sunday. The Saturday dinner was fine - I don’t have a problem with overeating when I’m out with family, because I’m usually too nervous to eat too much. But, Sunday was at home, and even though I ate more than Saturday - I’d still consider it all to be under control. All in all - it was only two meals without Jenny.
The Saturday dinner was the traditional ham dinner, with a hash brown potato casserole - very fattening and yummy, but I only had a very small amount. Then a 7 layer salad - also very good, but a small portion. My mother brought dessert - Banana Split Cake - Excellent choice and again - seriously fattening, but only a tiny piece.
Sunday, came with candy-filled Easter baskets for the kiddies - and I wasn’t even particularly tempted. Dinner was chicken salad sandwiched (one of my specialties), my grilled potatoes with onions, spices and olive oil - another specialty of mine and my mother made a Jewish Apple Cake for dessert - which was incredibly good.
Posted on April 9th, 2007 by lizzie
Filed under: Weight Loss Ramblings
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I think I have the same problem with family get to gathers & meals. For some reason I’m more picky about what I add to the plate and how much I add to the plate. I am surprised that I don’t go back for seconds (as much now).
As crazy as it sounds - I think I don’t eat as much at parties and such is because - if someone sees me overeating - they may put 2 and 2 together and figure out why I’m overweight!!
On our first few dates you didn’t even finish what you had ordered. The third date was at an Xmas party for your work, and I remember your hardly eating there. It was a scrumptious party, but your will power was tremendous. When you set your mind to something you are very determined….
If only it were about will-power, but, the fact is I think it’s more about not wanting to eat in public AND I’m certain that being in your presence for the first several times… I was awe-struck and extremely nervous. Being in the presence of greatness does that to me.
However, I am very ambitious and determined… and that has served me well, but I am weak when it comes to food - in many situations… hence, my on-going struggle to keep weight off.
But, as always - thanks for the kind words.